M.I.A

taken on 15.01.12. {H&M sheer top, F21 velvet corset, Topshop body-chain, H&M jeans (bought on sale @ half-frigkin price!), M)phosis leather clutch, booties from FEP.}

Hi. I guess, I'M BACKKK!?! Well if anyone's wondering, i'm back to square one where i started this blog almost a year ago which is, jobless, schooless. Which provided me with all the time in the world to contemplate whether or not to blog again but this time, with a different concept. A style blog. (i'll explain more on why i've come to this decision in the bottom half of this post.)

LIFE
I cant seem to find a job which i know i will be happy doing, but well, not many can but stick to their dreaded jobs for money. But this is me. I refuse to make a living off smth i dont like. "A job's a job", they say, with good intentions. I know that & i will get that job as soon as i snap out of my delusional trance of 'i dont need money to survive' which is of course utter bullshit in this society.
I know exactly what i wannna do, but there are so many shortcomings & personal psychological barriers to break through.. &i'm lucky i have a few close friends who help keep my chin up & urge me & advise me on where i can start & well, that's gettin a job first even if i hate it.

Why dont i continue studying? Why am i sucha loser? Why cant i just get a proper job? Some may wonder. I am rly not someone who can sit in class & concentrate & go home sit my ass down & rush assignments after assignments & doing this on repeat for 3 god-damn years. So i cant risk it. i cant risk the time & money that i barely even have into education. i am strictly not a routine person. i hate conformity. i hate having limits & restrictions on what i wear &how i look or behave just because i am working for someone i dont care about and those are their rules. But yes, they're paying me so i am obliged to follow these rules and so this is why i dont get a proper job like sitting my ass in an office everyday 9-5 doing data-entry wearing formal.

i'm not despising these kinda jobs, they're just not, me. I just cant force myself. Because i have very strong objections & personal opinions that do not agree on certain aspects of how society works does not necessarily make me a loser. There are jobs out there that i wld love doing & do not have such limitations and that's, either being self-employed, or being in the fashion industry or fashion magz crew. The first requires lotsa money w/o havin to study, the latter needs not that much money since there are govt aids but lotsa commitment into studying which, i rly am not confident i can. )';

So all roads at the crossroads are seemingly being blocked with all sorts of shit for me. But i see a small one, a tiny one thats hidden with overgrown weeds and that's here. This may not work but at least i know i will enjoy doing.

FASHION
I have been following my favorite fashion bloggers & i have been very inspired by them lately. Besides their awesomeness in putting together outfits, they wear and match stuffs in a way i can relate to, in ways that i can see myself wearing. Besides that, what i love is that they display individuality & establishing personal identities, through fashion. The more i read about them, the more i admire them, the more i feel im not alone even though i dont know these girls personally. Cuz in terms of style, i know of no one here who shares a similar style to me and that makes me insecure sometimes, about expressing myself through what i wear.

I found out that the reason why these girls blog, is cuz they wanna let people out there know that they can dress however the fuck they want. & of course, to show-off those great buys frm their local thrift stores & DIYS!

Presenting.. The girls i've been stalking ever since i discovered them;

LUA from http://www.fashionsalade.com/le-happy/

JESSICA from http://msvintagevirgin.blogspot.com

VIOLET from http://vi0lettae.blogspot.com/

MADELINE from http://jeangreige.blogspot.com

Fashion can be so over-rated sometimes. Every girl you see on the streets dressed in the same trends, whatever that are put out on the market, lacking personality & creativity. What is fashion if you do not have fun with it! Mix it up & shake things out! Twist the trends to make them your own. Nothing to be shy about showing off what's YOU.

One of the purposes of finally deciding to revive my blog, is to share my take on fashion through my personal style. Also, to prove that you don't always need high-end expensive labels to look & feel good although we live in such a materialistic society where people crave & pursue branded items.
My favorite purpose of doing this, to feel productive especially when i'm like totally bumming around now. Haha.

I had wanted to do this for a damn long time, but never did. I was scared of negative feedback, i thought i'm just not good or rich enough. So this is a result of lots of mustering of courage, & the realization that fashion is not about having the latest branded handbag or just trying to look pretty and definitely not to please the eyes of society. It's about defining me.


Like it? Hate it? i am open to opinions so anyone here reading this, just let me in on what you're thinkin. <;